What if....

Lately, I have been having a lot of "What if..." sort of questions about the decisions and events that has happened in my life this past year. Doubting this past year has been like a festering wound and is probably not healthy for me to pick at it. However, sometimes it is necessary to check if these wounds got infected and wonder these questions. I don't know...I guess what I am trying to say to myself is that I need to get me shit together and figure out life. It's either that or I am just rambling about a whole bunch of nonsense.

Currently reading: "Betrayed" by P.C. Cast and Kristin Cast

Reading the predecessor to this book, "Marked" was actually the first book I read in entirety for over a year. I am glad I am reading again. There is just a sense of calmness when doing so, but it just hurt (emotionally) to do so this past year.

Geez, I sound so emo....I promise I'm not emo, just going through a rough patch in life right now.

Insomnia, don't you just love it?

I just can't sleep. Nothing particular is on my mind, and yet, sleep still eludes me. Laying in the dark just feels downright lonely when you don't really feel tired at all and insomnia has been a constant companion at night lately. Is this my roundabout way of ranting about my horrible staying up late sleeping patterns? I think so. I should really go to sleep earlier. Well, I guess I'll go back to trying to sleep...again.

Travelling....?

It has become blatantly apparent that my best friends (two separate groups of best friends), want to do some road trips. That's cool and dandy, but they both want to do them to the same place at around the same time of the year. Has anyone else come across a situation like this before? Or does anyone even have two separate but equally loved groups of best friends that don't intermingle with one another?
I am contemplating the idea of having the two groups mesh and go together on the road trip together, but both groups are totally different.

Group 1, I met them all in middle school and are extremely smart and driven people, who like to joke around a lot, especially towards one specific friend in that group. Nevertheless, they are more the "straight-laced" type of people.

Group 2 and me became best friends in high school, since Group 1 went to different high schools than me. However, Group 2 does a lot of active things like going jet skiing, snowboarding, ATV riding, playing loads of video games, etc. This group of friends, how should I say, more relaxed, go-with-the-flow, partying type? Well, at least more so than Group 1.

Therefore, I just don't know. I know Group 1 knows one of the girls in Group 2, but the Group 2 girl doesn't really like one of the girls in Group 1, so that's already a red flag. Sigh. I really hate being in the middle, especially in this situation, because I will have to tell one of the groups that I can't go with them. Ahhh, I think the Groups should fight for who I go on the road trip with, or at least bribe me. If only that was a plausible resolution.

First Blog on here!

Interesting, interesting.
Blogging.
It just seems like an easier method to state my opinions to the rest of the world and it's my first blog so bare with me! I will most likely just say many random things and talk about the adventures of my life...or not so adventurous ventures in my life.