What if....

Lately, I have been having a lot of "What if..." sort of questions about the decisions and events that has happened in my life this past year. Doubting this past year has been like a festering wound and is probably not healthy for me to pick at it. However, sometimes it is necessary to check if these wounds got infected and wonder these questions. I don't know...I guess what I am trying to say to myself is that I need to get me shit together and figure out life. It's either that or I am just rambling about a whole bunch of nonsense.

Currently reading: "Betrayed" by P.C. Cast and Kristin Cast

Reading the predecessor to this book, "Marked" was actually the first book I read in entirety for over a year. I am glad I am reading again. There is just a sense of calmness when doing so, but it just hurt (emotionally) to do so this past year.

Geez, I sound so emo....I promise I'm not emo, just going through a rough patch in life right now.

Insomnia, don't you just love it?

I just can't sleep. Nothing particular is on my mind, and yet, sleep still eludes me. Laying in the dark just feels downright lonely when you don't really feel tired at all and insomnia has been a constant companion at night lately. Is this my roundabout way of ranting about my horrible staying up late sleeping patterns? I think so. I should really go to sleep earlier. Well, I guess I'll go back to trying to sleep...again.